Saturday, November 8, 2014

Saturday morning weigh in



I almost didn't post this at all, but then decided I should if for no other reason than to 'keep it real' and let you know I haven't quite given up on this endeavor.  My weight this week is only down like .2 lbs so I'm not considering it a loss at all, at best I just maintained this week. 

Which is no surprise really, I didn't work all that hard this week, but I did feel like I stepped up my game a little over the previous two weeks so I am slightly disappointed, but yeah, totally my fault. I ate too many steak subs (which we had twice this week...hey, we had BOGO coupons!) and even added potato chips on the side. I only worked out once all week. I ate breadsticks with my pizza, which adds way more calories than you'd think. Had three peices of cornbread with my chili. Had a couple of cupcakes and a Reese Cup. There's probably more that I can't think of right now, but you get the idea. Just letting the little things add up to be enough to prevent any weight lost this week.

So I know I need to step it up, plain and simple. If I want to lose ten more pounds by Christmas (which I now officially doubt I can pull off, to be honest, maybe I should aim for getting in the 120's?) I've got to start being ruthless with my efforts! Less junk and cheating, way more getting my butt moving. So easy to say, why is it so hard to implement!?!

Saturday, November 1, 2014

FINALLY a Saturday morning weigh in!


Weight three weeks ago: 137.4
Weight this morning: 135.2
Loss of: 2.2  lbs.

I can NOT tell you what a relief it was this morning to get on the scales after three weeks of cheating (and totally avoiding the scale altogether out of fear) to see a loss. I was chanting in my head on my way across the room to the scales, "Please don't be back in the 140's again!" because I honestly believed I gained every single pound back! So yay for momentum that kept me somehow safe the past three weeks, and hopefully today can mark a comeback of real effort again. Imagine how far along I'd be right now if I'd kept working hard and eating right. Instead of two pounds I'd probably be down six more by today. Reminder to myself: You could be back in the 120's right now if you'd have done what you know you should be doing. Stop being such a slacker!! :-)

That being said, I'm making pink cupcakes today for my daughter to take to her Sunday evening small groups tomorrow and, let's face it, pink cupcakes rock. So yeah. Totally going to have one. Or two. Just being real. ;-)

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Not going great...

I can't seem to get my mojo back after I went off the rails a week and a half ago. It is so frustrating that I was in such a zone that it was actually easy to stay under my calorie allowance, and now it feels impossible to even come close...to even TRY to come close. I am not making any excuses, although I do have PMS which I use as an excuse in the moment I'm about to eat Dorito's or what-have-you. I am just feeling so hungry all of the time, and giving in to muchies is so satisfying, isn't it?

The workouts have also stopped completely. I am sooooo exhausted so I don't workout, yet I'm probably exhausted because I'm not working out. The cycle of lazy is a tough one to break out of for me! Honestly though, my insomnia has been brutal lately and I also use that as an excuse when I'm sitting on the sofa instead of walking on the treadmill. Yesterday I rationalized that going up and down stairs for laundry all day was enough of a workout. The day before I rationalized my workout was rearranging the furniture. I mean honestly, I could rationalize anything at this point. 

I hate when I'm being weak and I know I'm being weak but I don't really do anything to stop it. Being weak is easier, to be honest. 

But I so want to be looking and feeling better by Christmas this year so if that has any chance of happening I have to get a serious grip on myself, and soon. Today CAN be better, if I'd only try a bit harder. I'll let you know how that goes. ;-)

Friday, October 17, 2014

This week never happened...

I'm taking the cowards way out and NOT weighing in tomorrow. This entire week has been a diet disaster and I have most likely gained a couple of pounds, so instead of weighing in and getting discouraged, I'm calling it a week off and hopefully getting back into the game next week. Yes, I'm horrible and this sucks, but whatever. I'm owning the colossal slip up, just not enough to face the consequences just yet! 

And truth be told I'm going to a college football game tomorrow and between that and the six hours I'll be in the car, I'm already acknowledging the cheat is going to continue. I so totally suck. :)

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Argh

Feeling so defeated today. I had one cheat day on Saturday -- no, it was actually just one cheat MEAL on Saturday night -- and now I'm up half a pound. Sigh. This seemed so much easier five years ago. I am just really frustrated today and wanted to vent for a quick sec. Moving on...

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Saturday weigh-in

Weight last week: 138.8
Weight this morning: 137.4
Loss of 1.4 pounds
Total weight loss of 6.6 pounds

Honestly, this is disappointing. I know that everyone will say that it's still a loss and I should be happy with it, but I feel like I earned more than a 1.4 pound loss this week! I worked out very hard three times, I was under my calorie limit every single day, I basically did everything I was supposed to do, and it's a small loss. If the weight loss slows down this early in the process, this is going to take a VERY long time. Not sure what I can do differently this week, other than add in more workouts and possibly drink more water. 

And onward I go...
 

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Saturday weigh in

Weight last week: 141
Weight today: 138.8 
Loss of: 2.2 pounds

I did exactly *one* workout since the last weigh in, so I have to be happy to have lost anything at all! The truth is, even though small numbers were how I lost last time (sometimes even less than a half pound a week!) it feels slightly frustrating. It is getting harder to squash cravings and stick to this (and obviously sticking to an exercise plan is eluding me, as well!) and the thought of several more weeks to go is daunting. 

However, my mantra has always been one meal at a time, so onward I go, holding onto that thought. Just the next meal. Perhaps adding in: just the next workout!  :-P

So around five pounds lost so far, around fifteen to go. Today is college football watching day, pizza on the menu, and I'm ever so slightly considering a *cheat* day. (sigh) We'll see. ;-)

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

It is Wednesday and I'm still here...

Midweek update: Diet going well, except that I'm running a bit on the low side of calories some days and I'm worried about the effects on my metabolism. Exercise has been non-existent this week, mainly due to raging PMS. :P

I'm finding the eating part so easy right now, which is so nice. I'm holding my breath for the inevitable bottomless pit hunger that will come back eventually, but for now I'm riding the 'easy' for all it's worth. I'm frustrated in my laziness this week, I mean, I could at least be walking a mile a day to get something accomplished! Maybe I'll motivate in the morning to drag hubby on a walk before work. We had been doing those 3 or 4 days a week for most of late August and the first three weeks of September and although we didn't go far (about a mile and a half) it was nice being out in the sun and spending time in the quiet mornings together. However, I'm a wimp and when the mornings started being cold (40s and 50s, nothing frigid, mind you) I wanted to stay in my warm house instead! :)

Mood wise I'm doing pretty well, even considering the PMS. I'm wondering if the lack of junk food contributes to that? Or maybe the anxiety is fed by the extra calories I was consuming? ;-)  At any rate, I'll take it. Last month was REALLY bad from day 8 to 14 of my cycle (ovulation has become way worse than menstruating for me in my 40's) so I'm bracing myself for that. Hoping mother nature is kinder to me this month! 

Well, that's where I'm at right now. Both holding steady and slacking off but still here checking in so I'm still in the 'losing' state of mind!

Monday, September 29, 2014

Week Two

The weekend was both good and bad, diet wise. The good is that I stayed within my calorie and fat range both days...the bad is that both days contained pizza. ;-)

I'm honestly not going to sweat it at all, though. I did the same thing last time, eating whatever I want -- as long as I stay within the calorie/fat range Sparkpeople sets up for me, that is. I feel like I'm less 'deprived' feeling and it feels like less of a diet and more of a portion restriction program. As I track my eating online, I soon realize I can eat more food if I choose smarter things and every decision becomes a trade-off. I treat it like I have $1200 in the bank and it's up to me how much I can buy with that money everyday. Pizza is expensive, but I can afford it if I budget properly. 

I am well aware it may be a slower process when I approach it like this. If I was only eating plain chicken breasts and broccoli all day long I'd most likely get where I want to go much quicker, however I doubt I could keep that up for long! I'm going for the long term here. Last time it took a full six months to get to goal, so I know this isn't going to be a quick couple of weeks till goal. We're talking MONTHS, not weeks, so I'm trying to be realistic here. 

I only did one workout over the weekend, but right now I'm focusing more on my food intake so I'm not sweating it. (HA! See what I did right there?!) I probably did about seven miles total last week, which is okay but not what I used to do, by any means. Part of this is me easing into it, part of it is me being wimpy, and part of it is slightly strategic. See, when I workout hardcore I tend to get famished, and then I am constantly hungry, which in turn makes calorie counting seem downright torturous. Right now I only want to workout enough to get a quick metabolism boost but not make my appetite jump up, and after awhile I'll start to kick up the intensity and frequency of working out. 

That's the plan, anyway. ;-)

So I am officially on week two now. This week will hopefully mirror last week in both diet and exercise (and pounds lost) but I'm going to take it one day at a time. It is also PMS week and I'm feeling a great deal of stress on behalf of my poor, stressed out teenager right now, so I'm perhaps taking it one hour at a time right now! :)

Sunday, September 28, 2014

Comments

So apparently I'm not getting notification of new comments,  because I just noticed there were several stuck in moderation. Ooops. My bad! :)

Honestly, I assumed I was talking to myself over here, but there are a couple of you die-hard awesome lovelies hanging out after all! So anyway, I guess I'll check every once in awhile...sorry about that!